Reminder

Its the center of an eye,

dark and unfavorable...

Engulfed by color, jealous, unable to resist.

The muddy waters that surround a Lotus flower.

The wretched smell of a loveless home.

Yelling "checkmate"...handing my slippers to me when I come in from work.

Its like the infidelity that sits on back porches,

lurking in family courts

with blinded adults and taunted children.

Its whooping and hollering in its Sunday Best, taking my spirit,

giving my eardrums a run for their money.

Its making a mockery of me.

Its a different kind of post-traumatic stress that reverberates throughout my existence.

Popping wheelies along twisted vines, choking the breath out of my lungs.

Thick as if I added cornstarch.

Textbook heavy.

I never win the war and I get vanquished in the battle.

Its stifling my heartbeat...

staining the fabric of my dream catcher.

Subduing the fight against these tears....

Oddly, its the only constant I have right now.

The only thing I can count on.

Your absence is more apparent than I want it to be.